not hardly... more like a great day of fun! kohl's, outlet malls, st. augustine, town center-- we did it all and with smiles on our face! well,.... most of our faces. the new smile!
These are the flowers that Channel 4 gave to me from their Kudos from Kuhns program. They really took my breath away Friday. I just could not believe how big they were. I had to have Derek come to school and transport them home! It is a good thing we both have big cars! It was amazing! One of my former parents nominated me, and they picked her letter! Great family!
We are still in a season of holding... we get bits and pieces of good news.. they are working on reunification with the boys.. it can be a long process... J's adoption is going great... we are moving to place with you... aaahhhhhh... if I think about it long enough I can really work myself into crazy! J's placement with us happened so perfect. It was quick, painless, and a perfect match! We were naive to believe it would be that way again. While we didn't think it would be as easy, we certainly did not think it would be this long. It makes me wonder... why oh why is it taking so long! I know that everything God does is good and wonderfully perfect but the waiting thing has never been easy for me. I try not to think about it, although we do pray for those brothers everyday, and the girls talk about "when they come" or "what we will do" so they are so much a part of us, and yet they are not. Could it be that they never will be? It can drive me to a dark place thinking about it... why wouldn't the State (or more or less the caseworker) want sibling reunifcation, especially when there have been cases right here in our very own State where siblings have sued and won because they were separated. So, if you sense my frustration, well yes it is still there just bubbling at the surface. and so We pray, we pray for peace over this situation, and we pray for resolution... court dates keeping coming, and we know the Guardians are doing everything in their power to make this move along.... but it is not in OUR time, and we know that! So really the busy weeks are a nice distraction. But the quiet times, or the phone calls make it all so real again. How long will it be? Will the baby see a 2nd birthday with us, will they all be home for the Holidays? Will their be a hole if they never come????? And so we PRAY! We pray for wisdom in understanding a system that seems so unfair, and we pray for peace that would comfort us and allow us not to grow weary or angry. Does it make it easier... sometimes, most of the time just manageable.
Is Fall here yet? If you have been in Kohls you would certainly think so! We live in a climate that lets you appreciate the mild change of seasons, so to get a full breath of a new season one must visit a Kohls! Does it ever look like Fall in there. Halloween and Thanksgiving stuff line the aisles. It was a welcome sight today. Maybe cooler weather could be on the way, and the winds will blow and the seasons will change (and I am talking about THE season!!!!).
Not to worry because the Big J is no where to be seen in this post... he had football practice this morning and then spent the day with his family! he will be back tomorrow after school. he actually called and reminded us that he needs his backpack and a snack.... cracks me up!



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