Five Fabulous Rowans

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. Psalm 90:14









Well, in some respects we are quite happy for the distractions of the holiday season. Friday was a great day for us. Two hours of pure joy. All the kids played, talked, and had a great time. J's older brother almost cried when it was time to leave, and those of us that did stay behind cried a little. It was so overwhelming. We can't even begin to describe how our hearts are stretched and pulled right now. We glimpsed at the family we desire for two hours yesterday, and it was perfect.

We do not know at this time, if yesterday will become a reality. To say that we have not prayed for this, and even at times, begged God to allow this to happen would be an understatement. We have turned to Him so many times for wisdom, strength and faith to guide us through this process. We are confused. We don't understand "the system."

It's the waiting, the not knowing that hurts the most. That brings you to tears at odd times. And yet does He not say to us, "If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer?" We have prayed that the little J's brothers would make it home here. We have prayed that we would be able to parent those little boys in a family environment that was free from the life they have lead to this point. That continues to be our prayer. And yet, we are so thankful that God chose us to be J's parents. We just feel so blessed, and yet we are longing for more. If that makes sense.

So, in short, we don't know what to think. We are confused, at times feel alone, and can't understand the system. But we know, that we will continue to be in prayer for those boys, and for our peace.

We know that many are praying on our behalf and we are thankful for that. We know that the outcome will be revealed, and we just pray that we have favor.

In the meantime, we will continue to do what we do everyday, and believe me that keeps us busy!! The big J's opening game is tonight, and we are very excited to see him play. His birthday is Monday (sweet 16, although not so much for boys LOL) so the week will be starting on a very high note for us!

The girls are excited to see the Christmas Break in the near future. Peppermint has arrived, and kept everyone on their toes. The little J just doesn't quite know what to make of him. Sometimes he likes him, sometimes he scares him... He was very intrigued by the move. He kept checking both places to make sure there was only "1". Anymore than that would probably set him over!

As we were driving in last night, the holiday lights seemed to cheer our blue mood. Our faith leads us to believe that He does make Everything glorious.

"Then maidens will dance and be glad, young men and old as well. I will turn their mourning into gladness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow." Jeremiah 31:13

David Crowder - Everything Glorious

The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than its hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe

(chorus)
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?

My eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that

(chorus)
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory
You are glorious You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious
Which leads me to believe
why I can believe that


You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious.
You are glorious. You are glorious.